Nerves

Thursday 24th May
13+5

I'm getting really nervous about Monday, its going to be such a strange feeling walking back into the hospital and re-living all of the feelings.  I know I said I wouldn't mention Sparty anymore in this blog but I can't really talk about Monday without mentioning him.  This was his final destination.  I know that I cannot think like this but its hard not too and these thoughts keep popping into my head.  Its going to be a tough appointment. Me and my amazing husband will get through this like we have every other hurdle that we have faced and it's never going to get any worse than what we faced before.  This is what I have to keep telling myself......new baby, new sperm, new egg!

I'm also apprehensive that these might be my last few hours with Loppy, and I know that I'm probably being silly again but I'm concious that it might be.  I want to try and enjoy this weekend and face Monday with a positive attitude.  There is nothing that I can do now and I just have to take it on.

Our downs results came back today, and our risk is 1:1630 which is really good.  It is. Its only because my risk last time was 1:31,000 that it seems much higher.  The usual risk for a 32 year old is 1:750 so it is really good.

Sorry for the very negative blog today.  The usual service will hopefully be resumed next week.

So onto Monday..... Wish me luck guys.

Helen and Loppy
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